I can't wait!

Lately, I find myself saying "I can't wait" about something child related almost every day.  For example:

• I can't wait to see my baby.
• I can't wait to find out if it is a boy or a girl.
• I can't wait to buy cute little outfits and spend a ridiculous amount of money on said outfits.
• I can't wait until maternity leave.
• I can't wait until our first Christmas with the baby.
• I can't wait until I can sleep through the night.
• I can't wait until I can fit into my old clothes.
• I can't wait to rock my baby to sleep.
• I can't wait until I can enjoy a glass of wine with my husband.

This list could go on forever.  And each time I think or say these things, I have to remind myself to slow down.  Yes, those things will be great.  And eventually I will do each one of them.

But for today, in this moment, I need to remember to enjoy it.  I need to remember to enjoy these last few weeks that I have left.  And I guess I will conclude this post with my list of Things I Hope I Always Remember (2nd Trimester).

• The first baby kicks.
• The first time J felt the baby kick.  And yes, he laughed.
• How scary it was having those first pains from the kidney stone and being more worried for my child than I was for myself.  And feeling like I would rather deal with the pain than hear my baby's heart rate drop because of the drugs.
• How amazing my husband was and how calm he was when I was hurting so badly and when we were in the hospital.  He held my hand the whole time and even took me to the bathroom because I was so drugged that I couldn't go by myself.
• Seeing our baby at the 20 week ultrasound and finding out that s/he was healthy and growing perfectly.  And how hard it was to tell them that we did not want to find out the sex!
• Watching my belly get larger each week and seeing how my husband just adores it.
• My mom crying the first time she felt the baby kick.
• Duke laying his head on my belly every night before bed.
• Being startled because the baby kicked me so hard in the ribs that it made me jump.
• Feeling like the baby was trying to climb out of my throat.
• Getting my first "stranger comments" because I finally looked pregnant.

Every moment of this pregnancy has been a blessing.  I consider us to be extremely fortunate and I do not ever want to look back and feel that I took one minute for granted.